KESH | 38 WEEKS

I can hardly believe I'm here, typing, at thirty eight weeks.

Today is the last Mother's Day that Kesh will not be a Mother. I already feel like she is though. Today at church, I taught my boys in youth about the importance of Mothers.

I didn't make them write letters or promise to hug their Mum as soon as they left the classroom. What I told them is what I know to be true.

You are loved by your Mothers more than you will ever know and have been from before you were here on earth. Make sure your Mums know that you love them in return. Show them you love them.

I asked Kesh to come in and speak to them about the feelings she already has as a Mother of our baby. The feelings have been there from the very beginning. Since the acknowledgement of life, we have been attached and in love.

I told the boys of how I came to be the person I am because of my Mum. My passions, motivations, convictions and loves are a result of her input in my life. I love her deeply.

I wish you could feel the butterflies in my belly, the limbs inside of Kesh's and the excitement that flows through our bodies. The anticipation is such a sweet thing.

Kesh had acupuncture a few days ago to help with the birthing and tonight, for the first time, I rubbed the spots on her feet, ankles and legs that encourage our little one to greet us here. Kesh feels like our baby will be here close to our due date of May 27. I've been praying the birth will be when both Kesh and baby are most ready.

Since I've been on leave, Kesh and I have had a running joke. Each time she experiences a Braxton Hicks, breathes heavily or makes any noise at all, I ask her if she is in labour. Tonight, at the dinner table, I asked her this same question to which she replied 'not yet, but soon'.

And soon, Baby, you'll be closer to us than you already are.

Kesh wears Cotton Spandex Jersey Long Sleeve Turtle Neck Maxi Dress in Imperial Purple and Modal Shawl Cardigan in Natural Cotton Boucle by American Apparel.