The last seventy two hours have been some of the most polarising of my life. I spent the weekend in the Highlands with Kesh. We attended a birthing class - one which opened my mind and has made me even more sure of the things I already knew; I love Kesh, I love our baby, and our birth experience will be just that. Ours.
I've also received news, which is not so beautiful, about people I care deeply for. And I've been thinking hard all day.
The world we live in is many things. My heart is heavy as I realise that not all things in this world are going to impact positively on our child.
The closer to the birth I come, the more I realise the trust that is being shown to me as a father, even now. The closer to the birth we come, the more I want to build a beautiful world for our child to be born into and to live in.
There is good in this world, baby. I promise. You will see. Soon.
With you, and with your Mum, I will help you to see all of it. And you will help me. You already have.
I love you.