A GIFT FOR KESH

Kesh has given everything to me. Within her gentle heart lies an indescribable generosity that flows into my soul. Over the last year, I watched as her beautiful frame grew within it a new life. A life that lives in ours now.

Kesh was twenty four when Roo was born and now she is twenty five.

It's because of her constant giving that each time Kesh has a birthday, I try to give her something that shows her what it feels like to be a recipient of a love like hers. I want her to know how she makes me feel every time I see her holding Roo in her arms, settling his worries at 3am. 

This year, Kesh's birthday fell on the same day as her Pa's funeral. It seemed right that Kesh would share her day with her Pa. We sat together in a small church, perched on a hill with the ocean at its feet. Holding Roo close to me, I considered his tiny body - small enough to to be held in Kesh's and now to rest on mine. While Kesh's Dad spoke true and kind words of his own father, I hoped that Roo would one day know of this moment in his life. Of this time where I felt true love for his Mum and failed to comprehend just how much he meant to me because he means so much.

Kesh never offered one word but of gratitude that her Pa's funeral was on her birthday.

The following day, we went to the city. We held hands, while we pushed Roo by the Harbour. Kesh fed and changed Roo in and around the MCA, before we ate delicious plates of sushi and realised the beauty of the creation of all things at the aquarium.

Two days after that, I gave Kesh her birthday present. We walked down to our spot and Kesh held my hand a little tighter when she spotted a young family.

'Who is that,' I asked her, already knowing the answer.

Sarah's music has been played in our home during Kesh's pregnancy with Roo, in the labour ward during the birth and even now. Kesh had tried to make it to one of her shows a few times and was disheartened each time it didn't work out. Her music has special meaning to Kesh and to me.

As Sarah sang there, on that hill, both she and Kesh cried tears of Mothers who understand each other.


38 comments:

  1. and to complete the tear session, Kesh & Saz, I just shed a few myself x

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  2. Your words and your love are so powerful
    Amazing

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  3. That is so, so beautiful Tim.
    You guys are an amazing family.
    What a wonderful gift you prepared for your wife…
    Ronnie xo

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  4. This is just so beautiful. I love these pictures, every single one. What a special afternoon, for all of us. I like the end one of paul carrying my guitars like the pack-horse he is. Hehehe.

    xx

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  5. There are no words. The love you guys have for each other, Roo and the world is beautiful to see. xxx

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  6. Such a special couple of days. I just love how you go above and beyond for each other. And these pictures are all magic as well :)

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  7. so, incredibly beautiful. such a testimony of love.

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  8. This is beautiful, Tim. My goodness.

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  9. Love how Kesh''s face always expresses her feelings.
    You all are love, guys

    x

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  10. So beautiful, your profund love for Kesh, your words, your photography... I felt really connected with both of you for a moment, even though I just started following your blog like a week ago. Amazing!I came here through the kootooyoo blog.... Greetings all the way from Mexico, Andrea

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  11. So sorry for your family's loss.

    These photos are gorgeous. Looks like you had the perfect family day out.

    x

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  12. I feel like we're all watching the makings of a beautiful coffee table book memoir about motherhood and love. Tim you are a poet with both your eyes and your words. Thank you for sharing with us.

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  13. (sure shows up the pair of slippers I just bought my lover for his birthday!)

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  14. oh Sarah sounds divine, what a special afternoon, always love seeing and feeling the love in your photos

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  15. It seems pointless to write a similar comment every time, but it still applies so I'm saying it again.
    You are actually an amazing photographer and I love what your eyeballz are seeing and I love your writing and Kesh is beautiful and Roo looks like a massive cutie and yeah.
    Also the MCA/Sydney ones especially, the colours are really rich and lovely and I love them.

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  16. So very moving. What a wonderful surprise.

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  17. Beautiful words and pictures capturing the amazing moments of motherhood. I loved reading this.

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  18. such a thoughtful present tim! and i love your pram for Roo, what brand is it?

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  19. gorgeous post and images... what a lovely thing to do..

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  20. Wah! That was so gorgeous, Tim!

    I'm a secret Sarah groupie (Lead Balloon is one of my all time favourite songs, whenever I hear it I feel like the world is full of all the possibilities my heart can muster).

    x

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  21. Just beautiful x Happy (belated) Birthday Kesh xx

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  22. I think I first noticed Sarah when she was on the same line up for a folk festival that my dad was performing at earlier this year. Thanks for bringing her beautiful music to my attention again. What a special gift you gave Kesh. Straight from the heart. This is what makes life beautiful.

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  23. Wow. That was incredibly beautiful!

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  24. What a beautiful gift. I am so moved by how poignantly you share the important stuff of your life on this blog - thank you for that, it's a gift in and of itself.

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  26. That's honestly, really, really sweet!

    Anna

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